Have you ever felt like a cold hand may tap you on the shoulder and whisper in your ear, “mmmm excuse me, we've made a terrible mistake, and you’re not actually the one for the job.”
I imagine most of us have experienced this feeling at least once at work (or even just in life) but Imposter syndrome tricks you into thinking you’re the only one. It seems there is no way anyone else could have those same worries underneath their confident faces, new loafers and power pants.
My first experience of this was as a young teen heading to auditions in London. I would walk into a room of very confident people the same age as me, all wearing the latest boot cut jeans (remember this was the 90s) and look down at my purple cords feeling very much like I shouldn't be there. The doubt would begin to creep into the corduroy cracks and I would quickly talk myself out of the reasons why I deserved to be there in the first place. Beginners’ nerves you might think, but two decades later I still face this brick wall of paranoia from time to time. It would be easy for me to look around and assume that all other broadcasters go on stage or on air feeling like a bold lionesses. Sometimes even when I’m in the swing of things and am feeling confident and content about the job at hand, there will be a little niggling voice that whispers 'blagger' in my ear. My knowledge and experience get eroded by self-doubt and self-sabotage.
BUT. I’ve learned to get a hold on this one quickly, using positive reminders of what I have learned over the years, and this helps to settle it somewhat. And also, I remind myself that everyone around me is probably thinking the same thing too. Look at your boss and work colleagues – or anyone who seems to have confidence and sass dripping out of every pore. Then look again. See them as a mum, a wife, a friend, a sister, a daughter – more than likely someone not dissimilar to yourself, embodying the same concerns and crises of confidence at times. Besides, aren’t we all just blagging it anyway?
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