On Twitter and red carpets, it seems like Ryan Reynolds has everything all figured out. He has what many would consider the perfect life - a talented and beautiful wife, two adorable children and an incredible career. However, just because someone's life looks perfect on the outside, often doesn't mean that it is.
The usually private Ryan opened up in a recent interview with , where he admits that he has anxiety. Not just an everyday nervousness, but anxiety that's taken him to some dark, deep places.
He explains: “I have anxiety, I’ve always had anxiety. Both in the lighthearted ‘I’m anxious about this’ kind of thing, and I’ve been to the depths of the darker end of the spectrum, which is not fun."
He admits that he becomes nauseous before talk show appearances and that anxiety fills him with an "energy of just wanting to throw up", adding that he's hardly eaten all day because he was dreading the New York Times interview.
But with a life in the public eye, how does he cope? Ryan divulges that his humour is what helps him get through it.
His career began with comedy shows such as Two Guys, a Girl and a Pizza Place, showcasing his knack for a crafty punchline and well-timed jokes, but during his 20s, he confesses to an "unhinged" phase, where he tried to make himself "vanish in some way". After trying self-medication for the paralysing anxiety but losing friends to overdoses, he left the life of the party behind.
He also reveals that by taking on the character of Deadpool in interviews, the eponym of the 2016 film which received rave reviews, he's able to almost hide behind him as a defence mechanism. He also uses the meditation app, Headspace, and relies on being on stage to take away some of the pressure.
“When the curtain opens, I turn on this knucklehead, and he kind of takes over and goes away again once I walk off set. That’s that great self-defence mechanism. I figure if you’re going to jump off a cliff, you might as well fly.”
You can read the full interview .